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| it's been a good 3 months since i've been on here.
go figure.
I'm in Lake Charles now. I like it. Last weekend was a bit rough ,but this weekend was ever so amazing...okay I went to shreveport but once I came back it was just as amazing, if not even more.
I'm doing really good on watching movies this summer. I'm just saying...tonight was movie number 5. and the best one yet....which is good because the rest weren't the greatest. not all bad...just not the greatest.
I don't know what else to say. Xanga seems so pointless...probably why it's been so long.
I miss my babies. They were so cute. I bet Mollie's sitting up now. And Eli better be crawling. and Sanders...oh it's been so long since I've seen him! OH!!! I miss them so! And I wonder if Grayson and Will still love me. Why did the difficult ones love me? Probably because I gave them so much lovin'. They were so cute!
I should call to see how they're doing.
I'm loving my new job. The youth a great, just not too many of them. I swear one of them aspires to be just like David. It makes David going to India seem not so bad, either that or it's gonna make me miss him more. One or the other. Next weekend is happening, the next is claire's wedding, the next me and my sr. high leave for san marcos. In October I go to Kansas City, in Novemeber--Nashville, and January--Dallas. I like that I can travel as a part of my job. Because we all know that Stephanie was born to travel....so on she will travel.
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| So the possibilities of where I might be in a few months are gaining.
I've almost reached my 360 hours for work, and as much as I love it, recently I've just wanted to run. Not only from work, but from everything. I want my life to mean something. I want to do something significant. I don't like being tied down. I like freedom. And I feel I have lost all of mine at this moment in time. I might actually be headed back to BR to live. Something I really don't want to do, but I think it could work out. It's not currently my first choice. But it's on there...which is rather shocking in itself.
I've had a jam packed last few weeks. With lots of traveling. What can I say? I love to travel.
When I go to Ruston, you know I never want to leave. Last night I left at 1130 at night, and I didn't want to leave then either. I have a handful of people there who are the absolute greatest to me and I just can't seem to walk away from them. In a few months two of them will be in Shreveport, but does that matter? No...because I'm am hoping to be gone.
There's something bigger out there for me...I just don't know where it's at or what it is!
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| "Whats left to lose? You've done enough,
And if you fail then you fail but not to us,
'Cause these last three years,
I know they have been hard,
But now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun,
Even if its alone."
how beautiful is that?
so when was the last time I said something on here?
Update:
I am being a mother of eleven. They're adorable. Grayson is especially MY baby.
I'm not a huge fan of Shreveport.
I have no idea what I want to do with my life...but all will be figured out one day.
"How many stupid times a day do I use the word I?"
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| it just might be.
Where God is leading me right now...i don't know where it is.
But He is here, He is present. And I love Him ever so much.
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| And then there was that moment when I realized I am loving what I am doing.
Nap time...it's amazing thing. Today I read in my journalism book, but at one point I came to that realization, that I do quite enjoy what I'm doing...it might not be forever, but it's a good place for now. A good place to learn and grow and just be me. (in honor of all happeners everywhere..."i just thank you father for makin' me ME!")
I've been sick recently, but I'm getting better, slowly but surely. I won't go into all the details but monday was bad, and last night...well i think i just ate something rank. because I just had a momentary...awfulness.
My mom keeps having these dream where I have a boyfriend. Yet her vivid dream memory always fails her and she can't describe him well and she sure doesn't know his name. It's not helpful at all. But it keeps me hopeful--i believe God has a GREAT sense of humor.
I miss my best friends...
I miss all my friends too(other than my shreveport ones of course! b/c I do seem most of them often! which I LOVE!)
I think that's about all for now. I could tell you about everything that's happened since I last wrote, but that was too long ago! sorry! In summary of that long time : Job at FUMC daycare, trip to natchitoches, trip to houston, mardi gras parade, extreme themes at church make me want to vomit, sickness(not b/c of the themes)...the end!
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